9-teen

Hello everyone. It's been a long time, no doubt about it. I'm truly sorry for not being able to update anymore. I've been too busy with college and somehow, I can't even keep track of my activities anymore which resulted in nothing to be shared here.

Anyhow, I'm here today, to update a bit of myself. I know no one remembered or even realized, last Monday was my 19th birthday. The last teenage year of my life. I'm turning 20 next year. Hmph.

I had a good time at college. Thanks to one of my classmates for telling my lecturer it was my birthday. I was trying to keep it away from his knowledge cause Mr Jana is the most hilarious lecturer. Well, he did something I never imagined of too that day. Right at the moment he heard about my birthday, he suddenly started to sing for me. Well, that was okay though. But the most interesting part is coming now.

He suddenly asked one of the guy in my class to turn off the light. He walked to my place, and lighted up his lighter. The funny thing is... He asked me to blow it. I did then. Isn't my lecturer so sweet? He then kept on reminding others about my birthday too. Big thanks to you Mr Jana ^^

I think that's all for now. I was thinking of writing some other thing but I ended up with this. I wanted to write some more but right now I'm using my iPhone apps to post this, so I got lazy now. I'll be back whenever I want :)

After a long hiatus

I don't know what makes me to go on hiatus. Well, I was way too busy to update now. I hardly have time for myself. I don't get it why people says that private university is much more relaxing. Try ACCA at Sunway, you'll die.

I won't update much. This is just a post saying that I'm still alive and no, I'm not gone yet. I'm writing on the phone right now, so maybe I'll update with laptop soon.

P/s: I miss this blog :'(

Older

I just bought an album. It's Westlife. Well, I grew up with their songs. I grew up knowing them, BSB, Britney Spears and Hilary Duff. I know nothing about this Kpop, absolutely nothing. But what happened now? I know nothing about the European artists, I know nothing about them. Okay, not that noob, I do know, but I'm not that familiar with them anymore. A little dongsaeng of mine just had to remind me that Hilary Duff is married. I mean, how old could that make me? She's married, while I knew her when she was a kid. I mean, great, I'm too old now. I do feel old.

I just wish time will never flies. I miss the old times. I miss my childhood times. I miss being a little kid. I know nothing about life. I don't have to stress about anything. I don't have to give my best with people expecting me to do the best. I don't feel pressured. I feel just happy. Without anything bothering me. I miss that. I don't have to wake up early in the morning and get ready for college. I can sleep, as long as I wanted. Sigh.

So, college has started last week. I had full classes on Wednesday, which is 9 hours of classes and less than 2 hours of break. Sobs. What a life. I collected the text books and maan, I do feel older. I even got juniors! Yes, by 1 semester but still, I got juniors. But don't mind that, I got to meet lots of Koreans... again. The only thing why I love the college. Well, I love other things too, but the fact that there are lots of Koreans there, it makes me more, happy! Lol.

First day went well. All three days to be honest. So, I'll be taking 5 subjects, 4 of them are core subjects of ACCA. I have to struggle and do the best for this. Financial accounting, Management accounting, Audit and Taxation! Oh great. Taxation is interesting, we'll see about Audit. I wish Financial Accounting will be waay better cause I kind of dropped before. And yes, Management Accounting/Costing, please be good. I beg you. It's like, you're the only paper that I can get high marks. I mean, seriously. I can only get 80++ for Costing though. Hee.

I guess that's all that I can say now. I'm out of words. I don't really know what else to say now. Lol. Goodbyee

2nd January 2012

It's January 2 now. This just means that it's been 6 years since I first met my friends in high school. The first day that I entered the school. The first time I met my new friends, who turned out to be my best friends for 6 years. 

Some might just say, 6 years is nothing. It's not even that long. But no, I can't say that. You might say 6 years are short, not long enough if you stayed with your bestfriend all of the time. Sticking to them by their side all of the time. But it's different for me. One of my best friend, left me in 2007, it's been 5 years now. We don't meet each other that often like others did. We got to meet during her holidays only. We didn't have the late night phone calls at all. We just stayed strong and believed in each other for 5 years. How would you say that it's a short period? I can actually count the time when we actually got to meet with each other. Not that much as others. 

I might treat them differently. They can actually see that I guess. I treat one of them with lots of care, I tried my hardest not to break her heart, while the other one, I keep on letting her down. I know I'm that bad. I've changed, I've changed since the year 2006. I'm not the same Amni. And yet, they changed too. But I'm holding tight to this friendship because deep in my heart, I know, no matter how much we changed, they are still my best friends. I treat one of them badly, but that's because I know she can hold it. I know she can endure all of that from me. I treat the other one nicely, because I know she's that fragile. I'm afraid she might got hurt. I'm biased, tell me that, but still, I can't help it. I'm still a human being. 

I know there are times when one of them asks me to go out with them, I keep on letting her down. I keep on saying no. Well, though it's because I'm busy, but yet, I do feel guilty. You may think that I don't want to be your friends anymore, you might think that I'm not a good friend, well, I do realized I am not a good friend. But when the time comes, when you need help, I know you realized that I was there for you. Even though you don't have that much attention from me anymore, though the distance between us are getting farther from each other, you have to know that you'll be my best friend. Even though there are times that I'm sick with your attitude, there are times when I'm pissed off with you, but you should know that you never left my heart. You're always there, as my best friend. I am not good with words in front of you, so when we meet tomorrow, don't expect me to tell you I love you and stuffs, you know I won't unless I'm in the mood of being a bit clingy to you. I love you, you should know that, Nuzul.

And the other one, I just wished she's here all of the time with me. I wish I was there when she was going through the hard times. I can't imagine her being alone in Australia, without her family. All by herself. There are times when I wish I would just appear in front of her door, and tell her everything will be okay. Well, most probably when she's having problem with that particular person. Though she breaks my heart, though I was mad at her before for some reason, you should know that I still love you. No matter what. Though I might sound so overprotective towards you, you should remember that I'm doing this for the best of you. I still remember the time when you asked me to treat him nicely, well, I tried. Though he's not talking to me, I tried my hardest not to do bad things or anything when he's around. You should know that. Of course I want to see you happy, all of the time. Seeing my best friend cry over a guy is just frustrating. I wish we'll always be this strong together, I wish 5 years apart from each other will never be a problem to both of us. We make it for the past 5 years, and let's make it for the rest of our lives. I love you, Shabihah. 

I am not saying I'm the best, but I am trying my hardest to be one. I wish I can be one. I'm not the old Amni, I changed a lot, and yet everyone changed. I tried to accept the new you, and please accept the new Amni too. I wish our friendship will never grow old, I wish you guys know I'll be there whenever you need me. Though there are times when I ignored you, you should know I'm always there for help. I love you guys, so freaking much. I love you guys equally much. 

Last Day of 2011

Welcome back Amni! At last, I'm finally here, updating some news from me. And I guess it's not going to be about Super Junior or Kpop, at least I hope so O_O So everyone, what's today's date? Yes, that's right, it's December 31 2011! Oh my god, it's the last day of 2011. By midnight, we'll be entering a new year, a new world.

I'm not that eager to celebrate this 2012 to be honest. I don't feel like leaving this 2011. There's just too much sweet moments but yet, the most tragic thing happened in my life too this year. The day when someone I love left the world. Hmph.

So, I guess I'll recall what happened to me during 2011.
The bad thing
- I can only think of one thing and it was grandma's death.
- Oh, and the time when I was supposed to go to SS3 Malaysia but mom already had a plan for me so in the end I spent the crappy night with my mom at an event -_- So boring. I still bring this issue up cause still feeling irritated at mom LOL

The good thing
- Hari Belia Negara, Super Junior M on May 28 2011. The first time I met my husbands, without Sihae though. Ryeowook, Kyuhyun, Sungmin, Eunhyuk, Henry, Zhoumi!
- MOA 2011 in KL on December 3 2011. The first time I met the rest of my husbands, and we're not that far from the stage. Kyaaa >.<
- I got my license
- I wrote fanfics! Lol. It's been my wish since before but now, at last I did that :p

Okay I don't know. The best thing will always be when it comes to Super Junior. Talking about the oppas, I wish them to lead a very good life. I wish there'll be SS4 Malaysia, I wish there'll be SNSD concert in Malaysia too. But yes, I look forward for SS4 Malaysia the most. Please come oppa, and please don't clash with my schedules. I can't bear it if I can't attend this T_T

Anywaaaaay, to all of you, hope you'll enjoy this 2012! Please lead a great life! :D

I'm 18 But I Act Like I'm 17

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card
[x] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You've done your own laundry (Not that many times, but yeah)
[ ] You can vote in an election (A few more years to go)
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics is interesting
TOTAL SO FAR: 5


[ ] You show up for school late a lot
[ ] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[x] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday
[x] You like to take walks by yourself (But never got the chance to -__- )
[ ] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week
TOTAL SO FAR: 8

[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[ ] You study even when you don't have to
[x] You have had washed a car before
TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[ ] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quick
TOTAL SO FAR: 14

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[x] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] You have been to the beach
[x] You use the internet every day
[ ] You have traveled overseas for more than 5 times
[ ] You make your bed in the morning
[ ] You realized people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.
TOTAL: 17

Repost this with the subject as: I'm (how old you are) but I act like I'm (what you got on the test)

Another K-Pop Survey

01. Who was the first Korean band you heard?

It was SS501 when I was 15 I guess. Three years ago. 

02. Who's the most recent Korean band you've heard? 

AA. Well, there's more. But their song just caught my attention. Hehe. 

03. Who's your favorite Korean band?

Super Junior. I am head over heels for this group. 

04. Name 6 other bands you like:

SNSD, B1A4, SHINee, T-ara, Secret, B2ST

05. Are you a fangirl/boy? 

A proud fangirl! :D

06. If yes, of who? 

Super Junior, SNSD and B1A4. But more likely to be an ELF :D

07. Do you learn the dances?

Well, some of them. But I don't really try that hard. Lol. I'm more into memorizing their lyrics.

08. Do you like Super Junior? 

It's not like, it's more to, I LOVE them so freaking much! 

09. What's your favourite SuJu song? 

All, I can never decide which one is my favorite. 

10. Do you like hip hop groups or non hip hop? 

Depends. I think both.

11. What's the first Korean song you heard? 

I Think I, the one that was an OST from the drama Full House.

12. What's the last song you heard? 

Miracle - Super Junior

13. Have you ever been to any Korean concerts?

Yes. 2AM's mini concert, SJ-M Concert in Putrajaya and MOA 2011 in KL. I think that's all.

14. What would you do if you saw any Korean idol walking down the street in your town? 

What do you expect me to do? Obviously I'll scream like mad and go to them say hello and take picture together. 

15. Which K-Idol are you most in love/lust with?

Each member from Super Junior, and Tiffany from SNSD.

16. Which three idols would you most love to meet in person (dead or alive)? 

Donghae, Tiffany, Super Junior.

17.Three things you would like to say to/ask them? 

Oppa, I love you so much. Please take care of your health and be happy always. Can I hug youu? :D 

18. Which three idols can you relate to most? 

I'm not even sure -___-"

19. Which three Korean songs do you constantly replay? 

Let's Not - Super Junior KRY | 7 Years Of Love - Kyuhyun | In My Dream - Super Junior KRY

20. Do you have any idols as your background? 

Background? On laptop? Er, no because my laptop is Windows 7 Starter, so yeah, can't have background. FML

21. Which idol would you most like to get fashion/makeup advice from? 

Tiffany. I adore her style so much, and her make up, it's just simple yet beautiful.

22. Do you read K-Idol fan fiction? 

That's a MUST! I have to read it everyday. Especially Haefany's fanfic. Heheh.

23. What is your favourite K-Idol related dream?

I can't remember cause I'm not that one person who remembers her dream when she wakes up.

24. How many Korean MP3s do you have? 

Are you seriously asking me this? I don't know, approx 500 songs? My phone is seriously full of Kpop songs -__-"

25. And, finally, if you could sleep with any three idols, who would they be? 

HAHAHAHAHA. Donghae, Kyuhyun and Ryeowook. Lol. Okay, I'm just being so random cause Haewook are my top bias and Kyu just somehow took my heart away nowadays. Lol

Unfair

So, this thing just kind of popped into my mind. For no reason. I think, no, it's not what I think, it's the reality, I know I'm being unfair to some people. I took people for granted. It breaks my heart though. It's not that I planned this. I never thought of this thing, but it just came to me today. I wonder, how many hearts have I break for all this time? How many times I really make someone feel distance from me. I am feeling bad for myself right now.

I don't know why, I just treat people differently. I don't know why, I swear. There are some people, whom I know will always stay by my side, treat me well, never get mad at me, and always try to make me happy. And what I did to them was, I kind of disappoint them. I know I am. I treat them the other way round. And I treat people nicely, when I don't even think they care about my feelings. This ain't good. I am blowing people away from me and putting hopes on people whom I know, never ever care about my feelings.

So here I am right now, apologizing to each of you. If I've ever hurt your feelings by the way I treat you. I thought it was okay, I thought. But I was wrong. I don't know if I can change myself, it's like automatically. When I see you, I'll feel like treating you the way I like. I'm mean. Put the blame on me. I just thought that maybe, maybe you can endure all of that. I just never care, I'm just that bad.

This even happens to my best friend. Yes, I have my own best friends but I don't know. I don't treat them equally. Some, I just ignore them. But still I care for them, I still love them. And some, I try my hardest to treat them well, not breaking their heart. Why. I hate myself now. Why can't I just treat someone fairly and equally? Oh, if you're thinking I don't love them equally, that is wrong. It's just that, the way I treat them. I love my bestfriends equally. I love them in my own way. But, urgh.

I'm sorry. I really am. I don't deserve the best from you guys. I might be unfair in treating you guys, but please know that I do love you guys. As long as I talk to you guys, that means you guys are important to me. Please, forgive me for my mistake.

Get To Know Yourself

-Girlish--
[X] I like at least one shade of pink
[X] I don't like being messy
[ ] My belongings are organized
[ ] I don't like rock music
[ ] I like wearing accessories
[ ] Bright colors amaze me
[ ] I hate black
[ ] I go to the salon once a week
[ ] I comb my hair almost all the time
[X] I bring my phone with me

TOTAL: 3


--Boyish--
[ ] I like wearing baggy pants
[ ] I play video games
[ ] I like Akon
[X] I like wearing jackets with hoods
[X] I'm too lazy to do chores
[ ] I don't like shopping unless it's for me
[X] I would go bungee jumping
[ ] I like being sweaty
[ ] I'm a fan of marvel heroes
[ ] I always wear perfume/cologne

TOTAL: 3

--Nerdy--
[ ] I always carry a pen in my purse or pocket
[ ] I enjoy studying
[X] I wear glasses
[ ] I'm a straight-A student (Once, so I'm not saying I'm one then)
[ ] I've never skipped any class in my whole life.
[ ] I like my shirt tucked in
[X] One of my favorite subject is science
[ ] I like reading mystery books
[X] My assignments are passed up on time

TOTAL: 3


--Emo--
[X] I am crazy about the color black [ Most of my clothes are black or white ]
[ ] I sit at the corner
[ ] One side of my hair is covering one of my eyes.
[ ] I like heavy metal rock music
[X] I have a lot of problems in my life
[ ] I don't talk much
[ ] I don't have that many friends
[ ] I barely have fun
[ ] I barely go out with my folks or friends

TOTAL: 2

--Childish--
[X] I love to stare at the ceiling for ten minutes
[ ] I sleep with a stuff toy/pillow
[X] I watch cartoons
[X] I love to invent words only I understand
[X] I sleep with a night light
[ ] My parents are the ones who choose my outfit.
[ ] I'm scared of roller coasters
[ ] I like being with my family relatives
[ ] I take bubble baths
[ ] I like Spongebob!

Total: 4

I'm 30% Girlish, 30% Boyish, 30% Nerdy, 20% Emo & 40% Childish!!


Multiply each score by 10 & re-post as I'm __% Girlish, __% Boyish, __% Nerdy, __% Emo & __% Childish!!

My Price

Put an X for the ones that apply to you, and add up the total as you go along.

Natural Hair Color:
[ ]Redhead – $80
[ ]Brunette – $75
[ ]Blonde – $50
[x]Black – $15
[ ]Bald – $5
[ ]other-$0

Total So Far: $15

Eye Color:
[ ]Blue – $100
[ ]Green – $75
[x]Brown – $50
[]Hazel – $25
[ ]Other – $15

Total So Far: $65

Height:
[ ]Over 7′ – $200
[ ]6’8? to 7′ – $175
[ ]6’0? to 6’7? – $150
[]5’5? to 5’11? – $75
[x]5’0? to 5’4? – $45
[ ]Under 5′ – $25

Total So Far: $110

Age:
[ ]30 to 40 – $100
[ ]25 to 30 – $75
[ ]20 to 25 – $50
[ ]18 to 20 – $25
[x]0 to 18 – $15
Total So Far: $125

Current Education:
[ ]PhD – $500
[ ]Masters – $450
[ ]Business Owner – $800
[ ]Bachelors – $400
[ ]Associates – $350
[x]In College – $300
[ ]High School Graduate – $250
[ ]In High School – $200
[ ]High School Dropout – $100
[ ]Jr. High – $50
[ ]What is School – $Bankrupt$

Total So Far: $425

Birth Order:
[ ]Twins or more than twins – $300
[x]Only Child – $250
[ ]First Born – $200
[ ]second born-$150
[ ]Middle Child – $100
[ ] last Born – $50
[ ]Other – $40

Total So Far: $675

Drink?
[x]Never – $300
[ ]Only once – $250
[ ]Sometimes – $200
[ ]Every other week – $150
[ ]Every other day – $50
[ ]Once a day – $15

Total So Far: $975

Vision?
[ ] No correction $75
[x] Glasses $50
[x] Contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction $10

Total So Far: $1050

Car Color:
[ ]Gold – $525
[ ]Blue – $500
[ ]White – $475
[ ]Black – $450
[ ]Red – $400
[ ]Maroon – $400
[ ]Green- $350
[x]Silver – $300
[ ]Purple- $250
[ ]Metallic – $200
[ ]Yellow – $100
[ ]Primer – $75
[ ]Rusted – $15
[ ]No Car – $5

Total So Far: $1350

Shoe Size:
[ ]13+ – $300
[ ]11 to 12 – $200
[x]8 to 10 – $100
[ ]Under 7 – $50

Total So Far: $1450

Room Color:
[ ]Black – $500
[ ]Blue – $475 (old room is blue)
[ ]Brown – $450
[ ]Purple – $425
[ ]White – $400
[ ]Green – $350
[ ]Orange – $300
[ ]Yellow – $200
[x]Pink – $100
[ ]Other – $ 50

Total: $1550